We walked Growlie Man, little Bingie Ding, to the Rainbow Bridge today. It was his time. Now, 5 hours later, he’s out under the cherry tree and I’m still here by the damn bridge, clinging to the handrails and watching the spot where he disappeared from sight.
…In our house, we’ve faced a few trials this year, but as I looked at the photos I was shaken. Our small measure of inconvenience and frustration amounts to absolute nothing when compared to the suffering that has descended upon the planet…
My breakfast, served by the Professor with love this morning, was pretty good. Eggs on a thin Everything Bagel slathered with Laughing Cow Lite cheese spread, chased with a glass of reduced fat, lactose free milk, and lots of hot coffee. I have a few questions.
I guess you’re owed an explanation – if you want one. It was, after all, more than a year ago that I traveled to Northern California, writing about my trip back to the place that made me and about what I learned there. Spoiler alert: what I thought I knew then is much less than I know now and less than I’ll know tomorrow. I’m ok with that.
In the weeks since I deactivated my Facebook account (and deleted Twitter, Next Door, and LinkedIn), I can’t say that I’ve missed any of them. Although muscle memory still has me reaching for the phone sometimes, it’s been surprisingly easy to set it back down.
It’s been a rough year for everyone, but it feels especially bad in very personal ways in my house. Changes are coming in 2021, some of them overwhelming. To weather them and prosper, I need to lighten my load, be willing to do without things I have known and that I’ve counted on.